Blogmas: Day Twenty Four! CHRISTMAS EVE.

Merry Christmas Eve everyone! Tomorrow is the big day, are you excited? I AM.

It's been an ace countdown, done so much festive stuff and truly feel super Christmassy and I think a lot of it was due to being away from home and doing the cute little drive home for Christmas. It was just very nice and I'm feeling good.

I spent last night with my brother and his fiancé, we had Asda pizzas and they are the best, if you've never had one like some people I've met at uni haven't then what the FRICK is going on! That is a disgrace, get down there now. I went into their bathroom and saw this…

I appreciated it more than a 19 year old should have.

Today I've been doing usual Christmas Eve stuff with my family, after going midnight grocery shopping last night I was super tired so didn't get up until it was time to go out for breakfast with my parents which was nice. We then went around all the families houses doing usual Christmas duties, dropping off presents, collecting presents (lucky us) and wishing everyone a v merry Christmas. I made pigs in blankets just now, stealing my nannies thunder oops. Then later on my brother and Chelsea are round for dinner before tomorrow, ahhhh I feel so warm and fuzzy as we're just watching The Grinch.

I can't wait to have a beauts day with my little cousin as well tomorrow! I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and day 25 might have to be a bit late and come on Boxing Day depending on how busy the day is! 

Have a good one! 

x x x 

Blogmas: Day Twenty Three!

I missed yesterday I'm sorry! I can't even remember what I did yesterday but it definitely wasn't interesting enough to post about.

Today I went to watch Elf at the cinema, just to get into the festive spirit! Libby gave me these cute little polaroid things which has loads of things we've done together this year, Shibby always brings the party let's be honest. We've had another sick year and next year is set to be sweet too with 5SOS shows, All Time Low and front row at The Vamps already lined up, YAAAS!

I've been doing a lot of thinking the past few days, so if you want to be slightly bummed out I'd leave now or if you want to be inspired to change then continue - I really want to make a change once and for all, no more hating myself, no more getting terrified that I'm dying, no more stressing, NOTHING. I want to like myself, just accept who I am and what I look like and realise that life is much more than the measurements on my body, that it is much more than the calories I consume, that it's much more than having a killer set of cheekbones. That's not what should be important to me. Instead I should put all that energy (like my mum says) into positive things, like my uni work, possibly finding a job in the area I'd like to work in…you know, stuff like that. I actually have a skills day at Heat Magazine next month and that has been my dream for so many years so to even step foot into that building is going to be huge for me! 

I really am just sick of being negative about everything, I want to turn it all around and I hope in the new year if you're struggling I hope you turn it around too. I hope you see the positivity light, see that life is much more than what is bringing you down. I wish you all the luck in the world.

See you tomorrow, Merry Christmas Eve Eve! 

Blogmas: Day Twenty-One!

Hiiiiii, I missed yesterday oops!

I had quite a weird day yesterday in all honesty. It was a turning point that I've needed for a very long time, finally being given something to help me and I'm scared but I need to try it to see if I can start to lead an honestly happy and anxious free life. I'm excited, scared, but excited.

I then came home and chilled, watched RuPauls Drag Race on Netflix which I am currently binge watching! You need to watch it, it's amazing. Then my friend India picked me and Corinna up for a drive and we drove around town just talking, it was nice to be back with them and do you know what our friendship makes me so happy because we've known each other since we were like 11 years old or something and here we are now, some of us at uni and the other is engaged. WEIRD. I think it's quite lovely though, those 2 girls make my life so much better, without them I'd be a mess haha.

Today I saw my brother and his fiancé for a bit, I'm going round his house this week for dinner for the first time since they moved in which is nice! But for now I'm waiting to go out for a sort of Christmas dinner with my group and for our secret Santa exchange. Sorry it's a borrrrrrin one!

See you tomorrow x

Blogmas: Day Nineteen!

Hello everyone!

I had a very productive day today, the creative juices were flowing (that sounds SO wrong and horrible, I take it back) I woke up and put on my Christmas jumper, although I didn't wash my hair because hello, I will wash my hair for no man. Actually, there was no man, I didn't even leave the house today.

Dinosaur socks are obvz well Christmassy 

I finished my wrapping today, my parcels look like actual parcels I felt like I was working in that post office in The Grinch, not blowing my own trumpet here but they look good! 

Wowweee, ooo la la 

After chilling with my mum I begun to make some gingerbread men/snowmen/snow flakes! I like to think I'm an okay baker but then my mum has to step in and help because believe it or not, mums know best. It's a fact of life! The recipe was from the BBC website, after trying to find a decent one I went with that because hello I'm not made of money I can't go out and buy a million and one ingredients so that was a pretty simple one which you can make too if you check it out on their website here! 

looking raw and anaemic, not v ginger at all 

They came out really quite nice, then I went and made them look like absolute psychos with the decoration, my mum being my mum said they looked nice but I think they look like they've been to a midnight rave and had a bit of 'fun'. 

All in all, I've had a very nice, festive day! I've tried to ignore a lot of negative thoughts I've been having for the sake of myself and also my mum. I need to enjoy my time at home, not spend it focusing on bad body image and anxiety.

I'm now going to spend my Friday night with my mum watching Text Santa - which you can donate to by clicking this link if you'd like, it's a good cause! 

I hope you've had a nice day and continue to have a nice weekend, let me know what you're up to in the comments. Have you been doing any festive activities? 

x x 

Blogmas: Day Eighteen.

Hiiiiyaaa, bit of a late one today! I've had an extremely tough day mentally, you know with mental illnesses you hit a wall sometimes and that was today. I just realised for the millionth time what I was doing to myself and others, I feel dreadful but it's upwards from here.

On a brighter note I spent the morning in town with my mum, I just love spending time with her she is my favourite person on Earth and I hope she knows that! I came back, had a nap (oops) I literally have no excuse for these naps, they really need to stop but they're just so damn good. My dreams were nuts though.

I then decided to delay more Christmas baking until tomorrow with the cutters my mum bought me today and to do some wrapping instead!

The stamps made their debut and my gifts really do look quite cute, I'll show you them all once they're finished but for now they're in the production line. I'm using the wrapping paper from Waterstones, the gifts tags etc from Paperchase and the stamps are from The Range!

I've never been so creative in my life, I feel good about it! ONE MORE WEEK TO GO.

How are you, how was your day?!

Blogmas: Day Seventeen!

Hiiiyaaa! Day 17, woweeee one week until Christmas eve! YAAY. So excited.

Todays plan was to go to Tescos and buy ingredients to make sugar biscuits and gingerbread trees, so off I went and on my way back I realised I'd forgotten the cutters you know that will actually make the shapes…so I went back with these heavy bags full of flour and sugar and nope, no cutters to be seen, thank you so much Tescos.

So I went home, my mum being the genius she is cut me out a Christmas tree shape and I then improvised and made crappy looking Christmas shortbreads from my mums old high school recipe book!

They actually turned out okay, considering I freehanded all the 'snowmen' and those things aren't nipples, they are meant to be baubles… meant to be.

I just wanted to do something productive today! I've spent the past few days having an afternoon nap and it's so annoying, but even as I write this I want to fall asleep - this sparks off my anxiety which I'm trying to fight incredibly hard today, trying to avoid saying and thinking negative things about myself and my health but it's just so hard!

But anyway, these shortbread are nice for a quick little activity to do!

What have you been up to today?

x

Blogmas: Day Sixteen!

Hello world!

I had a fairly productive day today (with yet another nap, my mum makes the house so warm and toasty it's hard to resist an afternoon nap.)

So I woke up this morning, opened my advent calendar and if you've been reading my blogmas posts from day 1 you'll know that the jokes inside haven't impressed me v much, but today was a different story, I was pleased. Well done, Malteasers.

I had a nice, refreshing walk into town and I thought I saw four meteors or four UFO's, I'm not sure but I was freaking the frick out guys. 

I've really missed being able to have relaxing walks, in London it's a fight. Although today I did nearly have a couple of fights - one in Burtons with an old lady with a trolley thing, she was rude and I was about to flip my lid then another in Marksies, everyone was simply getting on my tits and it was all old ladies. Now I love old people, old people rule but today they were on a rampage! 

I pretty much finished my Christmas shopping although I think I might have spent more on the wrapping paper etc. than the actual presents but who could even possibly help themselves when their creative mind wants to be set free! 

A few bits I bought for wrapping my Christmas presents today! Tissue paper and tags etc. from Paperchase and a 10m roll (woah) of brown paper from Waterstones. 

I also went to The Range and got some ink and stamps to jazz it all up, gosh I am loving Christmas this year. I think I'm going to spend Friday wrapping all my presents and making them look cute.

Tomorrow I'm going to walk to Tescos and get some bits to make gingerbread men or some shortbread, or generally anything Christmassy that I can bake so I'm going to spend the night looking for some recipes yay! 

My anxiety is through the roof but whats new, sometimes I think I should've just given in and gone to counselling but I know in my head I am strong enough to get over it but eh, sometimes you just hit a rough patch. 

Anyway, how was your day? Let me know!

Byyyeee

x 

Blogmas: Day Fifteen!

Day 15, wowweeeee that's 2 weeks worth of blog posts and I don't think they've been very good at all, haha oops.

I finally got a Christmas jumper, I am the proud owner of my first Christmas jumper, I feel like a new woman! I've never bought anything from Peacocks but this was £16 and it is quite fetching, I got a large because baggy clothes are the best.

I've had a few mentally challenging days and if my mum is reading this I'd like to say thank you for being the best, I love you lots. 

Hopefully seeing some of my pals tonight which is nice, ahhhh I actually just feel really warm and happy inside because of Christmas and the fact I'm at home - don't tell anyone, but I genuinely never want to leave again. HOME RULES.

Tomorrow I'm going to go do the last of my Christmas shopping I think, or I might delay that until Wednesday and do absolutely nothing tomorrow, my life choices are extremely difficult. 

How are you doing?! Let's have a chat! 

x 

Blogmas: Day Fourteen!

I'm still lacking on the super Christmassy posts which is making my blogmas seem like boremas but I've got lots planned to do leading up to the big day so stick with me, please!

This morning I went out and about with my parents just like I used to before I moved away and saw my beautiful little cousin who was kitted out in the cutest tartan skirt, AGH. 

I'm going out for dinner with my friend later for a long overdue catch up which shall involve revealing all of my tragic university stories haha. I'll update you later!

Okay, it's now super late my apologies! I went out for dinner and had a lovely catch up with one of my best friends Shanice. It was really nice, we went to Frankie and Bennys and I had a bbq chicken pitta and a pancake for dessert, my bad body image mind is hating me enormously right now but in all of my positivity I'm trying to fight it and remember that Christmas time is a time for happiness and stuff, so I'm trying my best to remember that I deserve to enjoy nice food whether my mind wants me to or not. ANYWAY, mental illness recovery aside - we had a lovely catch up and it reminded me how beauts it is to have a friendship where we can go months without speaking but then get together and it's like we've never been apart, Shazzaniqua united 5evz.

Tomorrow I'm going to have some quality time with my mum, perhaps see some friends and sort out my plans for the week!

I hope you had a nice day, byyyyeee. xx 

Blogmas: Day Thirteen!

Currently 8 am and TODAY IS THE DAY. I'M GOING HOME. QUICK, I'm about to break out into the going home song from Radio 1. Currently listening to Driving Home For Christmas, I'm just sat in my bedroom so you know being a little bit ahead of myself but I'm just so excited!

I'm meeting my parents at the South Bank to look at the Christmas market then we're getting all my stuff and I'll be going home for 5 weeks GAH. Mums prepared a mac and cheese for me too, what a gal.

I've been listening to Michael Bubles Christmas album, I know I keep going on about Christmas (it's Blogmas, this is acceptable) but I'm so stoked this year, the past few years have just been like eh but being away I think has made me appreciate everything, life and everyone so much more. I can't wait for the day, I can't wait to buy and create the gifts I'm getting people this year, it's going to be weird and different with my brother living elsewhere for the first time but as long as I've got my mum and dad that's okay. I'll just get a cardboard cut out of my brother and pretend he's not only 5 minutes up the road.

I AM HOME, it's 6pm and I spent the day with my mum and dad going round my grandparents and stuff, saw my beautiful little cousin who I just adore! It was a nice day but now I'm in my cosy house which is basically Santas grotto right now - mum did a good job, as per.

I'm really happy to be away from high rise buildings and being able to see the sun setting again, I've honestly learnt to love things like that now, I never used to appreciate sun sets and sun rises but when I was at my lowest point mentally this year I started to love aspects of life that I never used to. 

Ah well, I hope you've had an equally as nice day as me and I shall see you tomorrow! 

x x 

Blogmas: Day Ten!

Hiiiiiyaaa, how are we into double figures?! That means just 15 days until Christmas, I wish I was the man from The Grinch who does the countdown on the  clock, he seems like a great guy.

Last night we had our flat Christmas dinner and secret santa gift swapping! The dinner was a great success I must say, me and Molly used our initiative after I was super emo about having no pigs in blankets (how is it a Christmas dinner without?!) so we made our own and I felt like I had transformed into my nannie. We had stuffing, carrots, chicken and potatoes alongside the pigs in blankets and it was very nice! Oh, and a massive jug of gravy, possibly too big… 

Look at that jug of gravy, holy hell. 

Me and Molly had each other for secret santa how cute, I got her an eye mask that says 'Fuck Off' from Urban Outfitters and she got me a book full of Nutella recipes because since we moved in I've always had a jar of Nutella and one time they all shoved their fingers in it and it was an awful day. But the present was very sweet and I can't wait to make some of them! 

I was meant to go to class today but I didn't (oops) I felt awful this morning after my extreme lack of sleep so to refresh myself I went for a walk instead, got too Covent Garden and realised I was still too tired to walk any further so I got some mince pies from Marksies and came back to my flat. I just had a cup of tea with a mince pie to continue my extreme Christmas-ness. 

Now I'm going to go over my essays, potentially submit them tomorrow??!!! Then I can start packing my stuff up for going home on Saturday, PRAISE THE LORD.

Have a lovely day guys! 

x x 

Blogmas: Day Nine! 5SOS Edition.

Hiiiiiiyaaaa from a very dazed and confused Shannon!

Last night I (stupidly) slept outside Radio 1 like the crazy mother I am, 5SOS are back in the country and of course my life goes up the shitter and all hell breaks loose. It was so cold, it was a very stupid decision but the things you do for Australians. I mean it was SO cold, like deadly cold. This morning we go barrier and met the lovely lads, they are honestly my favourite people on Earth (apart from my mum, dad and brother) and even though Michael was absent it was still lovely to see the rest of them.

I haven't seen them in any form since July, I mean I'd always take a gig over meeting them but at this point I would've taken any opportunity because there was a big 5 Seconds of Summer shaped hole in my heart.

Luke and Calum were nice as per, it was cold though they weren't bouncing off the walls. BUT ASHTON. Oh good lord, see heres the thing with Ashton - since I met them at Warped Tour last year me and Ashton have always just had a sweet little thing. Every time he sees me he recognises me or looks at me like he knows who I am but can't quite put his finger on it and it's just very lovely. Today he looked at me and with wide eyes was like "Hello! it's so good to see you, how are you?!" and I was like "awww I know it's been so long hasn't it" and he said aw and patted me on the arm like we were old pals and it WAS SO FRICKEN CUTE. Honestly, it made my day because he never, ever fails to make me smile. He's just so polite and thoughtful for remembering every single time, he means what he says and that's just sweet.

My pictures are dreadful, I am Rudolph in human form and my face was puffy as balls but here are the pictures.

After all that I slept for 3 hours and now feel like absolute dogs bollocks oh my god. But we're having our flat Christmas meal tonight, cute! Although we have no pigs in blankets, so it's like hmm…what does one even do about that situation. I'll let you know how that went tomorrow!

For now, I hope you have a good 9th December! 

Byyyyeee xxx 

Blogmas: Day Eight!

Hiiiiii! (The 8 is a snowman how cute, that is the cutest thing I've ever seen in my whole life.)

Blogmas is going to be so much better once I return home on Saturday and can do a lot more Christmassy stuff! I wanna do some baking or something, that'd be nice.

Currently it's 10am and I have a test today (which I'm very unprepared for due to my sleepless weekend and another sleepless night that is to come tonight, blegh) and also a sort of presentation but not really, FUN. Can't wait! But once they're out of the way I just have to submit my essays and I'm done for the semester, and I shall strut out of this student accommodation like BYE. But no, I'm going to miss my pals a lot over the holidays it's going to be odd.

Once again I'm going to update this throughout the day…I'm going to make that a thing, do people do that? I feel like my approach to blogging is a lot different to other peoples. Mine is boring? Or humorous? I don't know. And it's very mismatched and weird - just like my life lolz.

Okay it's almost midday and I'm kinda nervous for this test agh, then I have a presentation but it's not really a presentation I don't know what it is but I know I haven't written any notes or whatever to speak about it! CRAP. BALLZ.

It's just gone 7pm now and I had my tests etc, all was okay - emphasis on the okay -  but now I'm set for a long night (I shall let you know why tomorrow) I'm tired just thinking about it.

One day closer to going home, one day closer to Christmas!

Mum sent me a picture of the tree, agh I can't wait!

How has your day been?! Please do let me know!

Blogmas: Day Seven!

Hiiiiiiya! Well done to me for sticking this our for 7 whole days, it's a Christmas miracle.

What a fricken day I've had god dammit. I had about half an hour of sleep last night, got up at 4:30 and was out walking the streets of London due to tubes not running til 7 - gross. 5 Seconds of Summer are back in the country so of course my life has turned into an immediate mess.

We made our way to the airport (reluctantly, knowing it would be a total waste of time) and there we were amongst hundreds of other girls waiting for them to arrive. They didn't. They took the back exit and the whole morning and lack of sleep was for nothing, it's okay though I'd never be mad at them it's not like they need to meet everyone all the time in every single country, however it would've been really nice to see them but never mind!

The walk through London this morning was lovely, weirdly felt very Christmassy. I think empty London at stupid times of the day is my favourite London.

 

How are you doing? I've had a 3 hour nap, feeling refreshed and getting ready for a test tomorrow at uni and after tomorrow I only have to submit 2 essays and I'm done for Christmas AGH I'M GOING HOME ON SATURDAY I'M SO EXCITED!

I've already arranged things with my friendship group who I miss a lot, then arranged to meet with lots of my other friends back home who I miss so much! I'm honestly so excited to go home.

The only thing that has super bummed me out is that I lost a bit of money the other night which was part of my Christmas present buying savings, so bummed out. DONATE TO THE POOR AKA ME.

Have a nice evening! See you tomorrow x

Blogmas: Day Six!

Hiiiii this is a special edition of Blogmas, it is the hungover edition. Please, someone save me. How am I even typing?!

Awful. Drinking is so bad, at the time it's so much fun then the next day comes and well it's not as much fun as it once was.

I woke up in my flatmates bed, she was asleep on my mattress on her bedroom floor?!?!?!?!? I had no idea why I was there but I was. I can't remember much from last night, I remember sitting on the pavement on London's embankment..I don't know why but it was fun. It was our friends birthday who lives in the flat next door and our fire door has been open for weeks so we were going back and forth to theirs and ours. Then the hall ambassador finally came up to lock the door because the alarm was going off HAHA, one minute we were all sassy like "why has it taken you this long to lock it, hUH HUH?!" and the next minute we were singing chants to get him to drink with us, truly awful.

Anyway, today my friends Georgia and Libby are coming round and 5SOS are back in the country tomorrow so you know…

How are you on this fine day?

Blogmas: Day Five!

Hiiiiii!

I slept through my alarm, I have nothing to be up for (my TV is also still not working, heartbreak Shannon) but I like getting up at a good time, sleeping in sucks.

Last night I went with a friend to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory in Londons West End and it was honestly so much better than I thought it would be. The acting was good, the songs were good, the staging was good - everything was good! It was just way better than I thought and it reminded me how much I love musicals and I now want to make a thing of going as much as I can, but I'm not made of money.

We walked through Covent Garden and all Christmas awards go to Covent Garden for making me feel truly Christmassy. Good Lord, it looked beautiful everywhere! So much so that I might take a walk down there today just for something to do and to get really emo about Christmas once again, if you're going to London or live in London and haven't been to see all the decorations then you must!

I might do some more Christmas shopping today, or simply leave it until I get back home (8 DAYS OH MY GOD) 

We're out in London tonight for our friends birthday, I've got a super busy weekend ahead but it should be fun, I think all my work is done for uni but not totally but just about and that's good enough for me! 

Have a beauts 5th of December everyone x 

Blogmas: Day Four!

Mornin! Blogmas day 4, keeping on track with this daily blogging thing aren't I, pat on the back for me.  Although I'm very sick of this green that I keep having to put on the title, green sucks but what other colours are even Christmassy?!

Tv update: still very much not working.

Okay, currently it is 9am and I think I'm going to update this post throughout the day - I just looked up at the hotel across from where I live and someone was looking at me, now I'm quite concerned that the tree that I thought protected me from anyone looking isn't so good and someone MIGHT have seen my knockers in the past. Never mind.

This joke, funny or snowman cannibalism?

It's now 1:50 in the afternoon and I left my class after an hour because it was just not my cup of tea, I went and splurged on pepsi max, nakd bars and christmas presents instead to get me in the Christmas mood. Oops. 

I'm off to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory tonight which (hopefully) will be a lot of fun! 

How are you? How's December treating you so far and are you enjoying these posts? Do let me know and have a nice day! 

x

Blogmas: Day Three!

Morning! The day hasn't even begun and I'm not feeling very festive at all, I'm extremely aggravated at the whole entire world - I might scream.

One of my uni submissions is today and I'm worried it's just utter balls, I'll probably post the links on here eventually. My television isn't working, yup not the end of the world there's more important things going on but hellLLOOOO I LOVE TV!? It's my number one comfort thing, even when I'm not paying any attention I have to have the TV on just to feel less…alone? I don't know, I've just always been the same. I love wasting electricity.

There's still a hundred and one things to do before the 12th December and I don't know how to write essays they are just super balls, I feel sick and need to just hibernate BUT I CAN'T.

I desperately want to go Christmas shopping, or write Christmas cards, anything that'll make me feel all warm and happy because right now I feel stressed and cold hearted like I could burn your soul with my icey heart - that was SO deep.

Anyway, I woke up to yet another amazin' joke. It's almost as funny as my life.

This was a very annoying post and I hope you have a very lovely day, I also hope mine dramatically improves.

See you tomorrow. 

x 

Blogmas: Day Two!

Hiiiiyaaa!

It's day two of Blogmas, I opened my advent calendar to a very corny joke and I have to endure 22 more of these, lord help. As you can see, I was less than impressed and I do appreciate a good joke in my life but you know…

Then I was like "oh, a boot" nope, it was a train okay but whatever it tasted delicious. 

I didn't sleep until like 3am last night, my flat mate Sanna fell asleep on my bed for almost four hours so I was almost forced to start planning one of my essays - she should fall asleep on my bed more often, it's great motivation to do work as I simply cannot sleep.

I was watching Phillip Schofield do his 24 hour Text Santa marathon on ITV 3, I love the Schofe what an absolute legend, he's one of my 'heroes' I have to say. I love television, I want to work in television and he is like the king of TV haha. It was really cool to watch, he kept it real as per and you can donate if you'd like here! I'm not going to lie it actually made me feel super Christmassy, it was nice!

I'm now going to go on a walk, treat myself for having such a productive morning of cleaning and uploading work etc. Then I'm going to get on with my essay - woo.

I don't know where I'm going with this whole blogmas thing, I need to find some really cute festive stuff online to write about, that's a plan!

Blogmas: Day One!

Hiiiiii!

I've seen many people doing this as taking inspiration from the YouTube trend of 'Vlogmas' - this is Blogmas, a post every day until Christmas/the whole of December, we'll see how this goes.

I'm not very good at keeping on track with blog posts and especially with my deadline filled life right now, it's all super hectic but I'll give it a go because I'm in the super Christmas spirit. And check out my fancy font up there, wowweeee hello xmas.

This post isn't very festive at all, but we'll try and make future ones rather festive as I have a few things planned over the next few weeks!

Right now I feel like utter balls, one thing I'll tell you about university is that you just get ill all the damn time and me with my health anxiety I'm convinced I'm dying - great. But I'm trying my best to ignore it all.

I went for Nandos tonight with a few of my friends from uni and I am still in a food coma 2 hours later, thank you @god for chicken and peri peri salt on chips, you did so good.

Okay, well I shall see you tomorrow and let's see if I can stick to my word and do this - if anyone has any Christmassy tags that you think would be good to do, or any tags in general or challenges WHATEVER then please send them my way!

Bye, have a nice evening x x